while i'm waiting.

So it's been a little while since I've written but I'm back with an amazing new song.

While visiting a good friend of mine this week, we watched the movie, Fireproof.  Just recently I also indulged in the movie Facing the Giants which is produced by the same people and loved it so I was excited to see what Fireproof was all about.  And it didn't hurt that it was starring Kirk Cameron.

Fireproof is a movie focusing on marriage and keeping Christ at the center of it.  I come from a divorced family and this movie hit me hard.  The past couple days in general have really made me think about the kind of relationship I want with my future husband and how I so desperately desire Christ to be the center of it.  I see, now more than ever, why marriages and relationships and families don't work.  Christ has to be first and everyone in those relationships have to be seeking him.

In Fireproof, a song by John Waller came up.  This song grabbed me by the heart.  It was so applicable to the movie and situation there but can carry its meaning to so many other situations in our lives.  Here are the lyrics and a link to a video on YouTube. 

While I'm Waiting- John Waller

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Every time I listen to this song it gives me chills.  This is my fervent prayer.  Through the pain, through the struggle, through the waiting, I will continue to run the race toward Christ, serving Him, obeying Him, loving Him.

I don't know what God is calling me to do with my life and this song seems so perfect.  I'm patiently waiting for Him to reveal that plan but it doesn't mean that my life doesn't mean anything the moment.  Everything we do should glorify God.  Every breath we take, every action we make should all be to His glory.  This is what While I'm Waiting is talking about.  It's not always going to be easy but God has a plan that we can rely on and while we wait, we give all the glory back to Him.

This is also a really hard concept for me personally.  I'm not a patient person and God dealing with some situations in my life that He is calling me to be patient about.  It's not about my timing, it's about God.  It will reveal all I need to know at just the right time.

We serve an amazing God whose plan is absolutely perfect.  What a comfort I find in that.

christ is born.

Happy Birthday Jesus!

So last night during our Christmas Eve services, we sang Come and Worship by Bebo Norman.  I love it and wanted to share it with you all thinking that it would possibly stir you and our thoughts on the meaning of this day.  The title is a link to an absolutely beautiful video.  Please watch it.

Come and Worship- Bebo Norman

Angels from the 
Realms of Glory
Wing your flight o'er the Earth
Ye who sang creation's story
Now proclaim the Messiah's birth

Come and Worship 
Come and Worship 
Come and Worship
Worship Christ the Newborn King

Shepherds in the
Fields abiding
Watching o'er the flocks by night
God with man is 
Now residing 
Yonder shines the infant light

Come and Worship
Come and Worship
Come and Worship
Worship Christ the Newborn King

Saints before the 
Alter bending
Watching long in hope and fear
Suddenly the Lord descending
In His temple shall appear

Come and Worship 
Come and Worship 
Come and Worship 
Worship Christ the Newborn King

I would challenge you to take time as this Christmas day ends 

to come and worship Christ the King.  

This is HIS day, it is about HIM.  It is so easy to forget but take some time 

praying and really remembering why we even have this day.  

Remember, Christ is our gift, His grace is enough. 

oh, what love is this?

I've been listening to a lot of Christmas music.  One of my favorite seasonal CDs is Selah's Rose of Bethlehem.  If you haven't heard them, look them up!  Anyways, it wasn't until recently that I really listened to their song, Mystery.  I have since fallen in love with it.  Not only is the musicianship amazing but more importantly the words are phenomenal.  Here are the lyrics so you can see what I mean:

Mystery- Selah

A child was born on Christmas Day
Born to save the world
But long before the world began
He knew His death was sure
The pain and strife secured

Mystery, how He came
To be a man
But greater still
How His death was in His plan
God predestined that His Son would die
And He still created man
Oh, what love is this
That His death was in His hands

The Christmas trees
They glow so bright
With presents all around
But Christmas brought
A tree of life
With blood that sacrificed
The greatest gift in life

I am just a man and
Can’t begin to comprehend
When You look into this traitor’s eyes
What do You see that justifies the Lamb

God predestined that His
Son would die
And He still created man
Oh, what love is this
That His death was in His plan
Mystery, mystery

I think my favorite lines in this song are, firstly, "God predestined that His Son would die and He STILL created man", and then the next line that is really perfectly coupled with the first is, "When You look into this traitor's eyes, what do You see that justifies the Lamb?"

This whole situation baffles me.  Christ, himself part of God, came to earth to save us, sinners, worthless beings, the scum of the earth.  God, the creator of EVERYTHING loved us, those sinners, so much that He sent his Son, perfect and divine to save us.  Why?  WHY?  When I think about this, it is a shock to my system with how much God loves us.  In Jeremiah 31:3 it says, "Long ago the Lord said to Israel: 'I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love.  With unfailing love I have drawn you to myself.' (NLT)  Two different words in that verse are used to show God's persistent and unrelenting love for us.  And the funny thing is we don't always love Him.  God knew when He created us that we would be screw-ups, and were undeserving of His love and grace, but "He still created man".

I am amazed that the God of the universe desires a relationship with me.  I am amazed that He wants to be a part of my valueless life.  His grace is so overwhelming to me.  This is the gift that I should be focused on during Christmas.  Honestly, what else do I need when I've been given grace?

i celebrate the day.

New song.  New favorite Christmas song probably.

I was in the car today after dropping my sister off, and I was listening to the local Christian radio station.  Obviously because of the proximity to Christmas, they were playing Christmas music.  I really love Christmas music more than I did I think because I recently took a vocal arranging class.  One thing my professor taught my class is if you're going to arrange for a well-known piece, you have do something to it to make it better than the original.  So as I'm listening, a "new" version of Silent Night coupled with Away in a Manger comes on.  So, me being a little critical, was thinking, "What is so great about this arrangement of these two pieces?"  It wasn't until the second part of the song, or as it's called, the "I Celebrate the Day" part came on, did I realize what made this piece special.  This was also about the point when I realized that these were done by Relient K, whom I love.

What I love so much about Relient K is how so many of their songs are so personal and blunt.  Matt Thiessen, the lead singer, guitarist, pianist, and primary song-writer for the band, speaks whole-heartedly and truthfully in the "I Celebrate" portion of this piece.  Here are some lyrics for you:

I Celebrate the Day- Relient K

And with this Christmas wish is missed
The point I could convey
If only I could find the words to say to let You know how much You've touched my life
Because here is where You're finding me, in the exact same place as New Year's eve
And from a lack of my persistency
We're less than half as close as I want to be

And the first time
That You opened Your eyes did You realize that You would be my Savior
And the first breath that left Your lips
Did You know that it would change this world forever

And so this Christmas I'll compare the things I felt in prior years
To what this midnight made so clear
That You have come to meet me here

To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me
In the hope that what You did
That you were born so I might live
To look back and think that
This baby would one day save me

And I, I celebrate the day
That You were born to die
So I could one day pray for You to save my life


I feel like this piece blows my mind.  I love how conversational this song is.  I would challenge you to go on iTunes and buy this and listen to it everyday.  The questions Matt Thiessen asks in this song are incredible and he phrases it so beautifully.  I honestly can't say anything more about this piece because it touches me so deeply.  Matt says it perfectly and I hope it affects you the way it has truly grabbed me. 


Today, I do celebrate the day that Christ was born to die so I could one day pray for Him to save my life.  How amazing is that?

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i'm found in you.

So today, well actually starting last night, it has been snowing.  Many of you know that and are currently experiencing it so it's definitely not news but I'm currently snowed in at my mom's and just found out church services tomorrow are canceled.  I'm quite bummed because we were going to be doing a new song at our contemporary worship service that I was going to sing and I absolutely love it.  I think I first heard this song on the radio but after hearing it at the an acapella concert recently, I decided we needed to integrate it into worship at our church.  This song is one of those that reaches way down in and grabs my soul.  God is so clearly speaking to me in this song and it makes me emotional and grateful and full of strength all at the same time.  Here are the lyrics: 

Shadowfeet- Brooke Fraser

Walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that I've never seen
I am changing, less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when I began
and I have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day

This first verse grabs me immediately.  I love thinking about how I'm on this journey, not an easy one mind you, but I'm growing and I'm changing, the old stuff is replaced by new, improved stuff. 

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

I'll be found in you.  That is becoming my more and more fervent prayer, that I will be found in God.  I am nothing without Him.   I honestly feel like this chorus pretty much speaks for itself.

Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way

Distractions.  This is such a loaded and heavy subject.  Anything and everything can be a distraction for our path with Christ.  And I have experienced this verse first-hand.  Our path as Christians and as disciples of Christ is not easy and it so tempting to want to give into those distractions and trick us into thinking that path is easier.
  
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things new
You make all things
You make all things 

This one line is repeated five times.  It is obviously important.  You make all things new.  That promise is a wonderful one and makes me smile just thinking about it.  Christ takes all our crap and makes us new creations.  He wipes our slate clean every time and makes us new.  How reassuring is His grace?!

When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

Again, I love this chorus.  I'm found in Christ, all my fears and accusations under my feet, and I'm walking the well-lit path toward Christ.  I find that amazing and wonderful.

How great is our God. 

relationships.

So recently God has been speaking a lot to me about relationships.  It's kind of hard to even really begin so I'll start at the beginning.

Ever since I came to college, I have been praying for a strong Christian community.  I've been looking for fellowship with fellow disciples of Christ and while I have found outlets that satisfied temporarily, I have been struggling to find a group of people that really encourage, support and love me the way Christ calls us to and let me do that for them.

Within the past semester or so, God had given me several people in my life who have really helped to shape and challenge me.  Honestly, most of the work I could say has even been done in the past couple weeks.  God has shown me friends that truly sit and listen about my relationship with Christ and my new-found strength in finding His true calling for my life.  These people bring out the best in me and when I'm around them, I'm constantly learning from them.  They give me a sense of peace and calmness that I haven't really felt before and it's something that I'm learning to apply every day in my own life.

It's also been made clear to me that God has each one of us in each other's lives for a specific reason.  We are put in people's lives to bless and love them.  At the same time though, God is not calling us to be our friend's saviors.  What I mean by that is something that I've learned first hand.  I've always been a person who, when I see a friend in need, I'm there at moment's notice to help them.  I do everything possible to make the situation better, regardless of what it demands.  But God's been teaching me that there comes a time when all the compassion and the love in the world is not going to change that person.  It is then that Christ asks us to step back and let Him do His work.  That has been a really hard concept for me to swallow.  Becoming scarce when someone is struggling is a very foreign idea to me.  But sometimes we are only in the way when we try and make things better.  Sometimes God has to remove all distractions and all help from that person's life in order to really do His work and to really make it clear to that person what He wants.

I find it amazing how God gives us these opportunities to learn such important lessons.  They always seen to come at the right time, and maybe aren't always appreciated at the moment but I love being able to look back and know that I made something of the situation.

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turner ashby music is legit.

So yesterday I attended the Winter Concert at Turner Ashby High School.  I have to say that I was thoroughly impressed.  Ms. Pyles is new to the school since I was there and she has done an excellent job!  Her ensembles are all of good size and she has even added some!  When I was at TA, the only choirs we had were Concert Choir, Knightingales, and Singers.  Ms. Pyles has added another mixed ensemble called Mixed Chorale to the mix and has added a guy's ensemble called the KnightHawks [how legit of a name is that!?] Here are a couple links to videos to show you how AWESOME they were.

KnightHawks- Rise up, Shepherd

Little St. Nick

TA Singers- How Lovely are the Messengers

My favorite- Wintry Night

Anyways, I mostly attended the concert because my brother was in it.  He's a senior this year.  That BLOWS MY MIND.  How is it possible that my baby brother is getting ready to apply for COLLEGE?!  As soon as the KnightHawks started to sing, I could hear his voice.  It's really heart-warming for me, especially since I was always bugging him to do music and especially for the longest time, to see him as a such a strong presence in the choir and giving so much of himself to it.  I'm always so amazed by how much my brother has grown and how much we really is coming into the individual he was created to be.  My brother is awesome.