I know I'm an emotional person. I've always been that way. But the thing I've been struggling most with is does that immediately translate to being overly dramatic about things. I'm sure I have my moments when I blow things out of proportion, but sometimes I think I am justified in how I feel.
For instance, most of the time, I can give you an rational explain for how I'm feeling. I can clearly tell you my emotions and my thoughts behind them. The problem seems to lay in the response from the other person. Sometimes I feel like I'm talking to a brick wall. And because I don't get a good response, I immediately assume I'm being ridiculous.
Is it intimidating to have someone tell you how they feel and know what they want? More and more I feel like I'm finding that's true. I talk and sort how my feelings and emotions while I feel more people would rather keep them private and not talk about them at all.
The thing is is that, I'm compassionate and sympathetic. I don't like hurting people, which hopefully no one does, and obviously avoid it at all costs. I hate getting mad at people and often feel guilty for being upset with someone, even if I'm completely justified in how I'm feeling. 9 times out of 10, I end up apologizing for something that wasn't my fault because I can't stand being in a tense relationship with someone.
No one likes to be told their wrong; I know I don't. But I think sometimes that keeps people from apologizing. And really that's all I want to hear. I can stand being hurt, but the truth is is that the situation would be a whole lot better, if you'd just apologize for it! Everyone messed up; it's a part of life. I don't hold grudges and I try to not be bitter about things. At least I'm really trying to work on it. But I only want to be treated the way anyone else would want to be treated. It's not like I'm asking for the world.
I don't know, maybe someday people will get it. They'll just say they're sorry and things will be better.
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