bigstuf(f).

I am constantly amazed at how good our God is.
This week I had the honor and pleasure of attending a conference called BigStuf in Panama City Beach, Florida with our high schoolers from church.  I knew the week was going to be good but I didn't realize how much the Lord was going to rock my world.

It's funny because I don't even think I understood how much the Lord as was working in me this week.  On the surface, I was participating in incredible worship that was probably the closest glimpse to Heaven I've ever experienced, I was completely confirmed and encouraged in being an intern at First Pres for the summer, and I was being blow away by our youth who was thirsting for God in a way I never could of imagined.

It wasn't until I got home and began the transition process of coming from a spiritually high week that I realized the astounding amount of process God had been doing in building me up and transforming me.

i thank you God for most this amazing day.

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any--lifted from the no
of all nothing--human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

-e.e. cummings

and as if it couldn't get better: 

arrangement of this text to music by eric whitacre

the arrangement we're singing in my women's choir

i don't believe i need to elaborate.

for today.

my heart feels so full
my lips search for the words to describe
my legs wanna run
but where?

where do i go from here?
my mind screams go!
and my heart wants to follow suit.

but i stay.
if only for a little while longer.

i try to breathe in patience.
breathe in peace.
breathe...my heart feels jumpy still.

Lord I can't stay.
there is so much more than this.
please show me the way.
show me.
show me.
show me...

i wait, resigned, impatiently patient.

[Image: http://granula.deviantart.com/art/somewhere-a-clock-is-ticking-152564936]

i can always tell my story through music...