Last night was a little bit of a rough night. I called one of my best friends upset and discouraged, frustrated with what God was doing, and what I was supposed to do in response. I had made up my mind, I was going to confront the problem head on and she challenged me. She called me out. And I know that God was speaking perfectly through her. She challenged me to give the situation completely up to Christ. If it is to work out she said, God will do it. But I can't press him. I can't change his timing.
I finally finished a book that I've been ready for probably about two months now and so I picked up a new book today called Sacred Singleness by Leslie Ludy. I've had this book on my bedside table for a while now, and have been so excited to delve into it. I'm only on page 31 and I already see Christ moving in my heart and making me think.
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Christ is calling me to do this in my life. He is asking me to lay everything down at his pierced feet and to walk away. I'm not allowed to expect it back. It's His. And it's HARD. This is not easy. While I feel this great relief knowing that Christ is in control, it's still going to hurt at times.
Last night, when I was talking to my friend, I was crying and telling her that I didn't understand why God was allowing me to go through this pain, that I didn't need to go through all this stuff in order to learn what he was teaching me. Tonight I read in Sacred Singleness a quote from Elizabeth Elliot. She writes, "None of us likes pain. All of us wish at times we did not need to 'go through all this stuff.' Let us settle it once and for all: we cannot know Christ and the power of His resurrection without the fellowship of His suffering."
Bam. Called out. No one said Christianity was going to be easy. In fact, it is far from it. We are called to live radical, revolutionary lives. We are called into obedience that most of the world will not understand. We are called to lead a broken generation of Christians. We are not allowed to stand idly by and do nothing. We are called to sacrifice ourselves to Christ and to be his vessels.
Some will think this is insane. Crazy. Honestly, it is. And I'm so excited to be apart of it. I get to use my worthless life for something so much bigger than myself. I have Christ standing beside me, guiding my every move, writing a story for me that is so perfect and sweet. I choose to give my life away in order to taste the sweetness that is Christ Jesus.
That is what tonight's song is all about. It is the final song from my awesome iTunes search that has produced four amazing songs that God had planned for me to hear at specific times. Check it.
Give It All Away- Aaron Shust
Search my heart, search my mind, search my soul
Make me clean, make me new make me whole
All of my plans, all of my dreams, I lay them down before Your feet
All of my time, all that was mine, I now submit to Your design
You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me
You are my strength, You are my God, you are my King
You make me laugh, You make me dance, You make me sing
Everything inside, everything outside, I give it all away
You never change, but You rearrange my heart more everyday
'Cause You are the one who can make my life complete
You are the one who can give light to my feet
You are the one and only one who dared to give it all away for me
What are you still holding on to? God is calling every one of us to live a set-apart life for him. Are you willing to give up your agenda and replace it with God's? Are you ready to hear God's sweet song calling you to him? Get radical. Lay it down. Let it go. Join me in feeling the freedom that comes with God's grace. We can celebrate together.
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1 comment:
Awesome Sara! I struggle with this too, completely trusting in HIS agenda and will for me and for my family. I am so honored that it is a journey, that I am constantly learning, growing, changing, and that it's not boring! I only wish I had your wisdom when I was younger!
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