dave matthews is a genius. and running scared.

I have been listening to the great Dave Matthews a lot lately and I have realized that he is basically awesome.

Fool to Think

By Dave Matthews Band

Look at me dreaming of you

All I could hope is to have you

To have you walking with me

Laughing so in love, we two

Almost drunkenly

I did imbibe of this

Fantasy of you and me

Was I a fool to think?

The way you looked at me

I swear you did

But you looked away too quick

Was I a fool, was I a fool to think

That you would take me home

As if I was yours

Was I a fool to think at all?

I've grown tired of love

You are the trouble with me 

I watch you walk right by

I smile, you do not notice me

Treat me recklessly

All you do is toss me pennies out

But the silence in me is screaming

Won't you come and get me?

You make a mess of me here

I'd dance a thousand steps for you

And if you say yes to me

I'll be whatever gets you through

You make a mess of me here

I'd dance a thousand steps for you

Was I a fool, was I a fool to think?

Am I a fool, am I a fool for you?

I swear his lyrics sum up my life time and time again.

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Will I ever stop thinking about him?

Am I really strong enough to stop being his fool?  To not notice him the way he doesn't notice me?

I feel like a mess.  I walking, screwed up, emotional, frail, ridiculous mess.

I want him to know my heart and feel the scars the are continually ripped open.

I don't want him to just walk right by anymore.  I want him to stand and face me and face this situation.  

Really, he's not walking by me.  He's running.  He's sprinting.  He's running scared.

What is he really thinking?

Yet I know I'm strong.  I'm strong.  I'm strong...

Everyone keeps telling me that, "Sara, you're strong."

What that heck does that mean?  And why do you know that I'm strong?

Why do I think I'm strong?  Because I can deal with this?

Because I can handle it?  Why?

Gah.

Make This Go On Forever

By Snow Patrol

Please, don't let this turn into something it's not

I can only give you everything I've got

I can't be as sorry, as you think I should

But I still love you more than anyone else could

All that I keep thinking through this whole flight

Is it could take my whole damn life to make this right

This splintered mast I'm holding on won't save me long

Because I know fine well that what I did was wrong

The last girl and the last reason to make this last for as long as I could

The first kiss and the first time, that I felt connected to anything

The weight of water, the way you told me to look past everything I have ever learned

The final word in the final sentence you ever uttered to me was love

We have go through so much worse than this before

What's so different this time that you can't ignore

You say it is much more than just my last mistake

And we should spend some time apart for both our sakes

And I don't know where to look

My words just break and melt

Please, just save me from this darkness

Please, just save me from this darkness

Lord, please save me from this.  I'm confused.  Where do you want me to go from here?

What is it you want from me?

I hate being patient.  And guessing games.